David was diagnosed with Alzheimer's 4 years ago. He hasn't been able to write or do any math what so ever during this time, but for 3 years, I've faithfully renewed his C.P.A. license. Silly me! This has been a hard one for me to let go. He studied and worked so hard, and he was so proud of the work he did. So I continued renewing it, and I could continue......but today I took a step forward/backward, I'm not sure how I'd describe it, but I threw the application in the trash, and I feel guilty.....sounds strange, but I feel guilty. I hate Alzheimer's!In the scheme of things, this is such a small thing....but
And I say, "thank you God for helping me to 'try and learn to accept' that some things will not get better."
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Dear Delores .... Oh, how hard that must have been for you ... how brave, how positive (in the face of a negative.)
Thought about you today during the Memory Walk!
Wow...I can imagine how that must have felt. There are just some things that become so much a part of our lives...and of course our past. Bravo for you, for looking at reality in the face and moving forward, painful as it is at times.
I love you!
L~
Oh, bless your heart. It is so hard to give up any small part of whom we have loved for so long and with such devotion. We hang on to every little scrap of who they once where hoping that will give us something of the past. Yep, I hate Alzheimers, too.
I hate Alzheimer's too.I am so sorry you had to do what you had to do. But you are so brave.
I have not taken the bills out of moms name yet. And she has not paid a bill in over 4 or 5 yrs. It took me forever to put the house in my name because she always said the house was all she had left. She gave me Power of attorney many yrs. ago but I just dragged my feet. I still don't want to be the one in charge of her life . I want her to be .
Delores: Thank you for your sweet comment on my blog the other day. It took me awhile to figure it all out, but you are the beloved Grandma to all those wonderful children at Always in My Heart.
This post is so sweet and so sad, all at the same time. I am proud of you. I have admiration for you. And I know you aren't looking for either.
Take care. God sees.
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