Last week he started limping, and it's gone down from there.....physically and mentally. The doctor said he apparently pulled some groin muscles. Thank God he didn't break a bone, but unfortunately the disease appears to be moving forward.
David seems very unsteady on his feet, which has been frightening to me. I bought a cane today.....I'm just NOT ready for all of this.....hmmmm, like .... who would be ready to move forward with this disease????????? I want it to stop!!!!!!!
I had four hours away today. It's hard to slow down and enjoy the 4 hours......maybe later on I can, but for now..... I have my list of things to accomplish ..... after 4 hours, everything was marked off my list.... YEA!
There are days when I feel so sad ...... but... when I look back on these pictures of our life 'BEFORE'....we have been blessed with so much........ I try not to complain, but I'm human.
Never in my wildest dreams, as a child, would I have EVER thought I'd be on a camel in Egypt, by the pyramids....and here's proof positive.
Spring is right around the corner......God is so good !!! HE gives us winter.....and THEN...... SPRING...
I bought petunias today.... pink ones, white ones and purple.
Thank you God.... for springtime and flowers!!!
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Oh, I get so shaky! I hurt for you, I know about the imbalance, with Papa now using the walker most of the time. Up and down out of chairs? Oy!
Glad you find four hours alone. I found out how much one hour means.
When I was a little girl, my dad use to tell me about my scruffy grass "God and the rain will bring it back"
when you are older and dealing with AZ, Maybe the sun will bring it back??
nice to have dreams to distract us huh? Love and prayers for you my friend, Judi
Oh, poor David. I think when they are in pain the disease takes precedence. Hopefully, he'll feel better soon enough. I'm so sorry.
I know what it's like too, to get away but not feel like you have. Too much to cram into small hours.
You are in my thoughts and prayers all the time. Keep the spirit, and get help as often as you can.
Spring will help us all!
xx
love
barbara
Remember, none of us function as well mentally if we're in pain, tired, etc. With Alzheimer's it's even worse. There's always the chance that he'll bounce back a little mentally as the groin heals. My Dad fell one time and bruised his back. He started leaning backwards. I guess it made his back feel better, but it was causing him to be off balance and he wouldn't stop doing it. He just couldn't understand (or remember)when we'd tell him to stop. I had to hire an aide to stay with him so he wouldn't fall again. You are so fortunate to have long term health insurance. That's one less worry for you. I suspect this is much harder on you than it is on him. That's how it was with us anyway. You've earned that four hour break each week.
Awesome picture in Egypt years ago before all this recent news. So concerned about David's fall and praying the disease doesn't become uglier fast. Glad you have four hours to do necessary errands. Love how you put the promise of spring and flowers in this post.
Hugs,
Carol
Thinking of you, Jenny
My friend, I am sorry to hear of Dave's fall.
Take a part of those hours for yourself luv, I know it seems so hard to do but 'just do it'. God love you. The photo is awesome! What an experience, what a memory.
I shall keep you in my prayers dearheart. 'til next time
I'm so sorry...it is a terrible disease...I know my FIL is getting worse...he is not as steady on his feet anymore...and that seems to make his mood worse...we are in the process of making some changes that will hopefully make life less stressful for him and us...he doesn't do well going out of the house anymore..it seems to really stress him...great photo...and a great memory for you
Oh no, Dolores, I'm so sorry to hear about David's fall. Of course it is natural to feel sad and scared, but you still keep finding positive things in your life as well. You are an amazing lady!
Wonderful photo of you and David in Egypt, particularly because of the historic events of the past few weeks!
I Hate that David fell!! I know this is SO hard on you sweetheart!!
I keep waving my magic wand...(swish-swish-swish)...think I'll just go back to praying...;o)
Loving you today!!!
hughugs
Love the photo of you riding the camel!!! Life changes every day for all of us...you are watching changes that are magnified because of this disease that David has...
Thinking of you!!!
Oh Dolores, I'm so sorry to hear about David's fall. It would be wonderful if there were a way to stop this terrible disease. I continue to pray for a cure.
I am sure it is nice to get away for 4 hours, but I know what you mean as far as it being hard to just turn it off and relax. This disease takes a huge emotional toll on the family and caregivers.
On a brighter note, that is a fabulous picture of the 2 of you in Egypt. With all that is happening over there right now, it is so interesting to see this glimpse of your trip. I remember one of my college professors telling of his ride on a camel. His comments were that they had bad breath and spit a lot. LOL.
You and David remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs,
Kim
'Morning Dolores - I hate to hear about David's fall. How sad for you realizing that the Alz. is progressing. Yes, it does seem to do that when there's an accident like that. Tony's mom fell and broker her hip last spring. She healed, but now she has "drop foot" and has to use a walker. It does make a difference. I hope that David will heal and regain what he seems to have lost.
I love this picture of you guys and the camel in Egypt! How wonderful that you have such great experiences to remember! Just concentrate on those, my friend. My prayers are with you.
Poor David, he sure didn't need this on top of everything else! I am sure this has made things a bit worse for him, right now. He'll feel better soon!
I am sorry this is so tough on you, I am so happy that you can get out once in awhile, as this will help the stain for you. I worry about you.
These loving memories of such sweet times sure do help carry you through. To see Egypt....wow!
Hello! When my mother became unsteady on her feet, we introduced her to a walker. But I have to admit she didn't like using it and continued on her merry way walking through memory care steadied by the hand rails along the walls. This is a hard one to deal with .............
What a wonderful photo and memories you have and to be able to have visited those awesome places.
Keeping you all in my prayers and especially for this extra time of need. So very sorry to read of his fall and I pray he will be feeling better soon.
Big Godly Hug
Have a little hope, although I can't say if everyone is the same. Mom had a scare from her brother that he might have cancer and she went downhill from stress of worrying about him. He didn't have cancer and she seemed to bounce back from the set back. Hopefully when Davids pulled muscles feel better he will bounce back a little.
Oh Dolores, I am so sorry for David's fall and injry but I am so glad it wasn't any worse. Love your photo in a camel. I haven't been to Egypt....Christine
So sorry to read about David's fall. Falls are scary for the very reasons you express. I'm remembering now that it was a fall that marked the beginning of the downward trek for my grandmother away back a decade ago and again just last summer. We can pray. We can rest in God's comfort. We can look for the best. In the end, though, we are only human and God knows it. What a wonderful photo of you and David in Egypt. You're the brave one riding that camel and David looks very proud of you.
Delores, I am so sorry to hear of David's fall but hope he will bounce back somewhat as he heals. I am glad you are getting some time out. YOU NEED IT!. I know, I was caregiver for my Mom for 5 years and it is imperative that you get some time away. I am still praying for you both. XO, Pinky
I am sorry to hear about David,my MIL is unsteady on her feet too, we put her in runners and took away the fancy shoes.
It does break your heart to see them go down,I see her that way every time I visit she forgets someone or something of her life.
Keep smiling for him.
Diane
Dolores...maybe David just hit a rough patch ...because he is limping and he hurts. I hope he improves in a few days. I know this is awful for you. You have every right to feel so sad. Open your heart to your readers. Everyone cares so much about you and we want to be here and listen.
I love the picture of you on the camel. That sure must have been a most memorable day. Hold onto your memories..they will sustain you.
God bless you and David. I may not comment much but you both are in my daily prayers.
Friends,
Susannah
Hi Delores, everytime I see a photo of you and David from years ago, I look at him and think of how responsible and dependable he was in money and life situations. He seems to have had the welfare of his famiy uppermost in his mind. He made wise financial choices, he truly loves his family and has done his best to provide. You married a great man and from your photos, I can tell he is a great father. Sorry to hear of his fall. It is good to see that you can let loose with some anger and frustration. I think of you and your situation often. Yes, spring is on the way... your flowers sound so pretty. May you find joy and contentment in the little (and big!) things God lays at our feet.
I'm hoping you will have a better week once he gets to feeling better. I can only imagine how hard it is. So glad you got a chance to get away! And spring will make you feel a lot better! You'll get to garden...then soon U. David can get in the pool again!
Love you!!! L~
I love the picture . And I am so sorry That David fell. Mom did the same thing. She fell and it seemed like the disease took advantage of her weaken state. But you guys are strong and he will get better. The docter wanted to put mom in a home for 2 weeks for rehab. I said NO!!The word home scared me to death. I believe that might of been a mistake. If they suggest this you might consider it because just haveing home health care come twice a week to do PT did not help mom much. And other people have told me that they put there love ones in rehab. and they got better fast. But there love ones did not have Alz's. So I will never know if it would of helped or not. I am praying for you both. Take care. I do know that taking mom away from home made her Alz's so much worse. It is a no win thing again. Good Luck.
Oh dear. I am sorry about David's fall, Delores. That is awful. I agree with some others here that when we are sick or injured, we are less able and capable than we are well. I will pray for a rebound of sorts for him this week.
I surely wish I lived closer to you. It seems such a small thing to give but words for help and comfort. ((hugs))
Chills just ran over me as I read your post. Poor David, poor Dolores. I am so thankful that David did not break a bone.
I was just thinking about how this disease will be slow and then something will happen, a fall, Elbert's dehyration, etc. and the disease just seems to take off on like it's been shot out of a cannon. Strange thing, this mind of ours.
I will add extra prayers for you two. Love and hugs,
Latane
The Pyramids and a camel? Look at you two. Life was good and love was kind.Love is still kind, David has you and you have the memories and pictures of a life of love, well-lived.
I am so sorry to read about David's fall and pain. I am glad you are able to get away if even for a short time. You both need that. Maybe you could even schedule a 4 hour nap sometime soon...
Just sending you both a hug!
My Sweet Friend,
I do so love the photo of you and David in Egypt. what wonderful memories you have to sustain you in the difficult time you are now facing.
Dolores, I find that with every difficulty life hands us, we are also given the tools we need to come through that difficulty with both our faith and our trust intact. Though we sometimes do wonder why these things happen and we question the loss of life as we have known it, there is a tremendous reassurance that comes from knowing that God is ever faithful, ever true, and always close by to catch us if we fall. I have fallen many times and have found that, as the scripture says, "The eternal God is thy refuge and underneath are the everlasting arms...". We cannot fall so low that the arms of God are not there to catch us---they are always there.
Know that my prayers are with you and David. I pray not only for his healing, but also for your strength. You inspire me so much and are such a blessing.
In Grace,
Marie
I can't imagine how difficult it is to see David slip away little by little each day.
Enjoy your hours away. You deserve some respite, too.
Oh, I know all too well, how hard it is, and it's okay to feel sad sometimes. It's like you are letting out bits of grief. Such a beautiful life and God is good. Showers of blessings were poured into you so that you had the strength for today.
My husband has Alzheimer's and we had such an amazing life, living in Hong Kong and then Canada. Now we are back in the States. Most days I cope very well, I am always able to create my way out of adversity, but there are days when the grief over what was seems almost too much to bear. Then I am reminded of something wonderful and I go back into acceptance.
You are a beautiful and courageous woman. This blog has lifted my spirits more times than you can imagine.
Karen
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